I can remember when I was 3 years old that my mum told her brother, (my uncle) that I am a bad child. Years later, when I was 7 years old, she told the teacher that they can tell me everything, (bad that is). 

When I was 9 years old I got bullied by other kids. But the funny thing is that I have no recollection why that happened. I can't explain why it happened. The kids called me a sleepy owl. They were standing outside and shouted up to my window and that repeatedly over a long period of time. Later I got beaten up by these kids who were the same age or just a bit older. And I had to repeat a year and constantly got bad marks in school.

I think that these experiences cost me my health. I think that from that time I have paranoia. And I have dark eye rings, my body is not so strong anymore, is a bit delapidated. 

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Because of these experiences I called the police several times regarding bad kids. It is this reason, that the media writes about juveniles and as in the 60's and 70's and even the 80's, parents did not call the police or social workers over the aggressive behaviour of some kids. 

And I thought to study Criminology with Psychology in order to get involved in changes to make communities safer. The problem is that with my school history, I might have to forget university study and think of finding something I can do. 

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Later on in the years, these sort of things got repeated and scared me a lot. Sometimes I had paranoia and sometimes not. But I had flu and hay fever regularly. I started to buy chocolate to feel better and searched for psychologists for help. 

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If you have paranoia you hear voices, but you are not aware that you hear voices.

 

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